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Tanye Jer!

Date: Friday, August 27, 2010
Time: 2:13 AM
tabah...

Ive been receiving bad news and all sorts of problem
from my friends and buddies and girlfriends regarding their love life..
Im all over with their problems...motivating them with all my experience
and lesson learn in life before this...

Talk to bby about this today...
He responded well and he did knocked some senses in me...
No doubt, he never fail to share his thoughts and experience with me...
Some other guys might not like it if we share things with them,
they prefer talk things that interest them...
But bby is simple and cool, he prefer talk on anything for us to brainstorm and learn from others..I love him so much....NIE BARU COMMUNICATION!!
hahaha! Bukan asik nak cakap pasal benda same...
Tak about our interest then about the day they go thru...
It will go rot wen time flies...BORING.....!
Am proud of myself and him...
I really enjoy our relationship journey..
Though his always away, he never fail to come across my mind...
We build a neutral relationship..
We fight it thru moderately and easy...
Its not tough at all....
Maybe, past experience taught us how to be more mature..
thank god for all the ujian dunia,hati dan perasaan
yg kita lalui....
Alhamdulilah....

Raya is all around the corner...
So is 23!!
Adoi...! Semakin tua lah nie...
Sedih sak...!
But am looking forward for birthday this year...
With family,him and friends...
They are just what i need in life...
2010 was the best year ever had in life...
Terima kasih ya allah...

As for us, everyone did notice that we are busy with some real business..
yeay!actually we are enjoying ourselves as much as we can now...
We started to plan for good real things..
Insya'allah, tanpa halangan..we will commence the right engagement date and wedding date...
Not sooo soon....like he mention to me...
"Dont worry,all will happen in time.."
Kita merancang, tuhan tentukan..
Im sure to be pissed if anyone ever associate me with my past...
To me right now...dah over, none was my concern...
they are just another stranger...:))
God will deal with them...ive done my part...

To all my friends....
Biar hitam sejarah hidup mu..namun harus tetap tabahkan hati..
Kesal memang kesal, hati kau tercalar..
siapalah yg iniginkan perpisahan....
Andai suatu hari ada org yg bertanya...
Mengapa korg tidak lagi bersama...
Jawablah, bahawa jodoh sudah tiada, dan tiada sengketa..:)
Tabahkan hatimu wahai saudara and saudari ku..
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Date: Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Time: 3:28 AM
Bababababa....

My sweet honey broke the most utmost exciting news to me today...guess what? my whole dream is coming true slowly and its with him...im so grateful..alhamdulilah...
Lets get it straight to business..my deary decided to bring me for a short holiday...to....BALI!!! Awesome or what....so tell me if im not freaking excited! i was half awake wen he told me about the plan..
So swweett..Sukerr...:)

If its not because of ah fad and his wife planning to go bali, i guess..i wont be stepping my feet over there...lol! Maybe taiwan will be the next holiday trip ill be going personally with bby only for our honeymoon...Im dying to go KUTA BEACH and what else...shopping , sun bathing and adventure with my darling one....baby noe my style...so gonna work hard for it and enjoy later for bali....weeehuuuu....not gonna stuck so much in one island with the same o thing...im getting more of a life than a routine after bby is cool from his errands...Susahkan jadi abg2 army nie...asyik di medan perang bertarung demi negara tercinta...lol....Im so in love with my bby...its kinda of true what he say to me every single time ...
"baby,good things will come to those who wait...", i will never fail to remind myself that...maybe its just him..a man of his word..mungkin inilah anugerah tuhan....insya'allah...
moga cita-cita, impian kita menjadi kenyataan..he put me back as one whole again and the fact is...he carve the smile back onto my face...

Chatted with lulu today...
gosh! she's happy tooo with his ex bf...
so happy to hear that from her...
I guess my buddies are doing al well..
alright...mungkin setiap yg terluka, akan dibaikkan dgn potion teramat baik...
"ya allah, sempena bulan ramadhan yg sempurna ini...ku mohon agar kau makbrul hajat2 kami untuk mendirikan mahligai suatu hari nanti akan tercapai kelak...amin ya rabal alamin.."

Im indeed an very happy girl...syukur...:)
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Date: Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Time: 12:43 AM
Strongerrrr

5th ramadhan today, its gonna be 6th ramadhan tomorrow..
Time flies dat damn fast dont you think so?
I dont really feel lethargic for this year ramadhan..
Maybe because working at swensen does more work i guess compared to *bucks?
Or maybe its just situation,environment and working style...
after so long, i did my first morning shuft at 9am today till 5 plus...
Gosh! a loooonggg thirsty and tempting day...
As i was doing fountain for half of the shift today...
funny....caught red handed org melayu tk puase....lol...!
but whateverlah kan...sendiri dosa, sendiri tanggung...

Sayang is still in tekong for another 2 more months
And he'll be back on normal regular basis after that..*hopefully*
But not too long, he'll be doing his sispec for another 3 months.
I know its tough but i have to dwell with it...
Im all prepared for his working lifestyle..
No doubt, from the time we got attached..
He got stuck with medic course for 3 months...
2 weeks of rest for us and his family..
Back on his errands for another 6 months in tekong for the BMTC thingy..
So by then after he completed tekong thing, we are already 10 months old..
I dont really feel the relationship duration..
I felt time flies that fast, kejam celik dah nk 1 year...
Glad i made it this far....its hard at first...
but he manage to pull me through this together with him...
I wasnt complaining but i am happy that im able to understand his situation..
He, at his side pon susah...he cant do anything like he always remind me..
He's working...klau aku keje mcm dier pon aku akan ckp yg same..
So meaning, im a grown up...:)) I know how tough life can be...
never once, he left me unattended if he got the chance...
Every single weekend, we have it for our own...
As every other day we have our own errands to clear..
Alhamdulilah...syukur...we are doing just well, smooth and insyallah...this will consistently glide all the time...
I need to get my needs,mental and emotions diverted to something impotant...
Ive no idea if he have to leave me for months for overseas deployment...
But if he have to be deployed, i have to get myself gear and all ready to face the worse kangen moments!
I can say, its gonna be extremely hurtful, sad and lonely...
But then again...im old enough not to be sooo dependent on my bby...
I have to be strong and tough...I did it all the time...
so why cant i do it this time with him....
every single day past will be the sweetest thing i will keep while waiting for him..
we do this sayang...!:)

Its enough for me to hear you call my name and say you miss me alot..
every single day...im serious...:[
Cuz i noe, no one else compatible to you, besides me...:)
Dont worry sayang...for all you know...im fine here...right now..
at this very moment...i tk akan menduakan you...apatah lagi mengejar cinta lain..
yang tk mungkin pasti...i love you so much sweetypie...
Ill be right here waiting for you...
even mummy noe...!:P
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Date: Monday, August 16, 2010
Time: 1:08 AM
Supernatural!:)

Did our first round of errands for raya and doing it the second round next week...
Got my raya heels and handbag clutch from bby...:)) Thank you sayang...
Waduhh! udah complete gitu....:P
Darling almost got me those wedding shoes for raya...
Absolutely astouding...! but i dont wanna have it too early...
I wanna get those heels as my wedding gift!!
hehehe...! i want something unique and classy...
not branded but common...oppsie daisy....!
im the minority..:))cheyyy!
Bby dying for fable 3 by xbox 360'...
and yes im getting 2 games for him...
another game will be mass effect 3, which will be launch next year...
I bet he will be the most happiest man in Yishun!
As much as he make happy, ill make him one too...:))

Am happy to know, mama is happy to see him a better person..
And so is mummy...she's happy that im with someone mature and a man ready to settle down..
Dont worry mummy, i noe what is best for my future that ure concern of...
the past was just a mistake...never i regret but only wish it doesnt happen at all..;]

Working in the morning tommorow, breakfasting at home...
yeay! mummy2! besok masak kari ayam pls........:P
im dying for kari ayamlah.....!
lol!!k nitey nites peep! have fun day dreaming....
have fun tumbuhkan jerawat di muka...:P
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Date: Friday, August 13, 2010
Time: 10:22 AM
Sampai Syurga...

Ku membenarkan jiwaku
Untuk mencintaimu
Ku persembahkan hidupku
Untuk bersama kamu
Dan diriku untuk kamu

Belum pernah kumerasai begitu
Semua itu telah berlalu

Harapanku palsu
Dan mungkin hari yang satu
Terus ku tertunggu
Di hatiku hanya kamu
Belum pernah ku ingin terus memburu

Aku lemah tanpa kamu
Ku inginmu dampingi ku
Aku fahami aku bukan terbaik
Untuk dirimu
Namun aku tetap aku
Yang terbaik untuk diriku
Hanya satu
Hanya kamu...

Ku membiarkan hatiku
Untuk merinduimu
Ku menghamparkan sakitku
Untuk tatapan kamu
Bersamamu harapanku
Hilang dalam terang yang membutakanku

Aku lemah tanpa kamu
Ku inginmu dampingi ku
Aku fahami aku bukan terbaik
Untuk dirimu
Sampai syurga ku menunggu
Sampai syurga ku cintamu
Hanya kamu...

Dan segala yang ku ada
Ku berikan semua
Untuk dirimu saja
Ku mahu dirimu
Bahagia untuk selamanya
Biar sampai syurga
Aku menunggu cinta darimu
Agar ku sempurna
Aku fahami aku bukan terbaik
Untuk dirimu
Namun aku tetap aku
Yang terbaik tuk diriku
Hanya satu...

Aku lemah tanpa kamu
Ku inginmu dampingi ku
Aku fahami aku bukan terbaik
Untuk dirimu
Sampai syurga ku menunggu
Sampai syurga ku cintamu
Hanya kamu..
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Date: Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Time: 11:16 PM
no time!

Hey! scrap you...! i rather watch 10 movies in a day, cook at home, watch my niece at home and post some any other stupid fuck post which come across my randomly than self-updating myself on people whom dont make any benefit for me...These people are some kind of a idiot or what? ouh...you think ure that important in my life? or am i suppose to get intimidated about your life..!? please ehk...this is suppose to one last warned from me!
Hell!ive got no time to do such a thing. When i know people are self-updating themselves on my FB, blog.. mungkin kau org tertanya mcm mane aku tahu org bebual pasal aku.. its because, i have more than a pair of eyes, more than a pair of ears.

Tkmo bedek arh lau org tk kaypo pasal hidup aku kan...kanina...!
nak hidup mcm aku? den you have to dare yourself to be hurt and go thru hardships over and over again. Kimek betol..Anyway, if whatever things ive said in my FB and blog which really hurt your eyes, ears and heart, i bloody reckon you to kill urself or even just shut da gap and live ur own life..I dont give a damn what's going on with other poeple life.. i dont give a fuck how much you enjoy, suffer or pretending to be a person in ur life..cuz i just couldnt careless people.

Geram dgn aku?? Benci dgn gambar2 aku? tk suka aku post benda2 pat FB?
Like it or not, u have adapt with it.. So cant i be happy?so cant i be like others.. Aku sedih org tk suke, aku happy org meluat. abeh kau nak aku buat ape huh? So you can do whatever you want? i cant arh? FUCK YOU! Nuff said..! FYI i dont give a damn on others on what they think about me cuz i have my ways to live my life so do you...! And please, kalau ade benda nk bebual dgn aku, come forward and bring it up to me.. tk runtuh kau gertak, tak mati kau bunuh...

Maybe some people might thing im still concern with my past or even other people past,
but the fact here is...GO TO HELL with the past...seriously, the difference between the past and present is my past and other people past are all fake! so whats the big deal...!? Monyet punyer org2 nak bebual pasal aku berani belakang aku, nk bebual depan2 arh....peduli ape aku kau sape..minah tak minah, kaya tak kaya, jambu tak jambu, kuat tak kuat..you cross my line you gotta face the consequences..

PLEASE, whatever you do in life now doesnt even intimidate me a inch....i have better things to do in my life...this is the fact and i dont care at all...suck your own blood people...i rather watch supernatural and keep missing my bf...so shooo and stuck ur tongue till it dries up all you want and start acting like a damn young kiddo who fail to grow up... SO CANT I BE A RANDOM BLOODY IDIOT??? wen i noe ure pointing at me?! im not yet stupid...and this post are for those who really fucking terasa, akan terasa, nak terasa ataupon selalu nyer paranoid....and i dont care....hear me out??
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Date: Monday, August 9, 2010
Time: 11:07 PM
my best!

Things my greatest have done:
  1. He cheer me up with things that makes me smile when im down.
  2. Bring me to places that amaze me.
  3. He kissed my forehead everytime im close to him.
  4. Hold my chin up and say "i love you" at anywhere, anytime.
  5. Wrapped his arm around me to make me feel like home.
  6. Never tire to layan my nonsense, attitude and behaviour.
  7. Hold my sweaty palms the whole day without leeting it go.
  8. Slice my armpits and say "hmmmm....serabai..."
  9. Kissed my neck before we bid goodbye.
  10. Talk about things that draw our creativity wild!
  11. Wake up late but still knows how to win my heart.
  12. Lie by my side and say "baby, you can start saving alright..we will get married.
  13. He acted slumberdog when i spot him.
  14. Kissed my cheek and it last longer than 10 secs.
  15. Surprise me with unexpected surprises and when i say "BBY! ape niee?" dier kasi muke cute dier and reply "huh?aper dier?why baby......?"
  16. Text me incredibly cute msgs like powerpuff girls song.
  17. He's ready to be a husband and father to all my future kids.
  18. Get me all ready for things that are important in my life.
  19. Hug me so tightly and i know he misses my absence.
  20. He swept my feet away from the 19 behaviours above..:)

    He's the reason im all contented every single time i breathe..
    Honestly, he's the greatest thing next to walnut rocky road and never stop exploring with him.. Its Mohammed Noh Bin Muti..:))
    Thanks to bby, for what i am today..he makes me the beautiful girl again...not the fatty one though he kept on feeding me with lots of food. Im greatful for that but still i have to maintain my figure till we get married, i dont wanna end up mak buyong after giving birth to 3 kids...:P Ima happy girl indeed..we dont to need dslr to capture our beautiful and captivating moments cuz it is too sweet and gorgeous to be potray for others to intimidate...:)
    What we have are for us to treasure...thank you syg for the long weekend..selamat berpuasa dan jgn lupa terawih.
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Date: Thursday, August 5, 2010
Time: 11:46 AM
Something to Ponder....



Many things occur in mind this few days..
Ive been doing much analyse on things that happens to me...
Seen so much, been thru hardship so much...
I think the pain is slowly decreasing...
And thank god for that....

I met up with Caden to start off my life insurance plan with him..
I have no doubt on anything but as much as im concern...
there many things that i as a singaporean myself didnt notice..
There's so much ways to pan for your finance and save your money on rainy days... examples, hospital plan, house mortgage plan, car plan..all this plan the more you invest the more interest you get the more things you can cover...wow! truly amazing...

Its seems like im all ready to get married but financially, im not yet...
Jacen is doing is part...lucky him...he started off early...
I believe there's always a way to all my doubts...
Im contemplating whether if i wanna have an account with standard chart,citibank or dbs..
Live credit card by citibank turns ma ass on dat god damn real...
Really! no shit i tell you...:P

Months passed...and now we are almost a year...
8 months now and we are moving on natural and smooth...
im actually touched by his existance in my life...
i noe, this wasnt a mistake...
i noe, this is for real...
well, maybe its true...cinta tidak menunggu masa dan waktu..
umur and darjat....
Alhamdulilah...
Im getting closer to mama...
the sweetest things ever is, she fed me kuih tart in front of jacen...
wow! i was least expect that to happen...
when mama, plan to go out with me to geylang to get langsir rumah dier..
surprise me indeed..syukur...
i strongly believe, im on the the right track...
No doubt, me and jacen have our up and downs...
but nevertheless, dier tk pernah abaikan tanggungjawab dier..
mendidik and menjaga i dgn baik..
he's doing things consistently starting from the beginning...

What more should i ask for??
Im asking and praying for future blessings from ALLAH on our relationship..
We are working on it...persevere thru things...
Making up things that uncertain, believe in faith and building trust...
Moga allah melihat niat baik yg kiter tanam dlm hati masing2...
insya'allah..amin...
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