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Date: Friday, March 19, 2010
Time: 1:40 AM
:)

Im gonna enjoy my long weekend this week..
Finally Jacen Alvarez COMPLETE his medic course today..
So proud of my bby...not only he can drive,
he can cook, a marksman and now certified medic..
i really got no worries if i anything were to happen to me..
He can confirm safe me even if i left afew seconds to live...:)

I wasnt really having a emo tyme this week..
Basically my week was filled with laugh and smiles..
Thanks to my dearest supervisors at swensen..
Thanks to my FA family..:)
They are the best that i ever wanted...
Nothing beats these friends of mine..
I enjoy my tyme over at the cheesecake cafe..
Seriously! The banana cake was awesome!
ZIV!!! Thanks for the treat!:)
Happy banget dey!!!

Been busy the last two days at FA..
School program for the boys and....!!
Kids course on wednes was a tragic one..
Funnylah..Roy drop his iPhone in the resevoir,
weizhi saved it, iPhone saved..
Kids on course was all most BACHOLSSSS!
Kiwak, me and roy can count arh how many kids we have to layankan..
Perangai Setans!!
Trust me!Handling young kids..
is hell no fun alrigght!
My whole body was aching all over..
Feel like gg for a massage..
Hmm...i dont think i need anyone else massage..
I can get it for free from my bby jacen..
see!!add ons..he can massage!
My life is getting better...
Alhamdulilah syukur..:)

Thanks to my dearest love for making his way from ChongPang to Jurong
just to fetch me home..So sweet kan..
Love him alot...and i know he is very tired..
But never he give me excuses to make me smile..
Nice of him..i hope..
this will work, as much as he really want us to work out..
I pray, its him that will be my hubby-to-be, father to my childrens..
He is garauntee plus chop...Lelaki tulin..
Sayang Jacen byk-byk...

Cute kan My Jacenbby!
My one and only:)

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Date: Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Time: 9:58 PM
think

Stop talking crap and starting thinking wisely!
Ive always wanted to say this here but i keep on forgetting..:(
Pretty sad that im getting older and my memory is not so good now..
I wonder if human really make use every space
in their mind to think about anything gonna happen in life?
Do they even think before they speak out something,
be it in blog, fb or even personally face to face to someone?
My bet, only minority would even bother to think before saying something..
As far as im concern, i really gotta to bring this up..
the fact is im mature enough to THINK like a women not a girl..
SPEAK maturely not like a kiddy..
and lastly, this is for anyone who likes to think they are always better...
"JANGAN MENGAJAR ORG KALAU BELOM CUKOP ILMU DI DADA"

The reason i bring up this "think" issue here is because..
i took a whole group of youth at risk at work today...
They really acting like mane nyer big fuck jer..
Walk with open chest, talk like there is no tommorow...
Seriously, during at their last site..
I asked this boys to do some interesting moves that i really make them feel ashamed of themselves among their fellow friends and officer..
I force the boys to do the tarzan swing, which is at 7 metres height...
Next i command them to rigg up their safety device,
face the tree and fall backwards...and to my surprise...
those with angkong, shout like mane punyer brawler, maki members bachol..
in actual these KNN is the biggest BACHOLZ i ever see...
got this idiot, keep on wanna negotiate with me..
"ma'am, can i do front way, i sick arh!"
Siak arh..baru 3 mins ago he shouted at his fat friend
"KIWAK!KAU BODOH pey bachol! Terjon jelah backwards!, berani buat case tapi tk berani terjon"
I was so fucking offended lah, i tried my very best to make him feel malu...
which i really did...
after he rigg up, he shouted from the top..
"Ma'am...please...let me do front way.."
I laugh at him and i only say this to him
"next time, before you laugh at others mirror
yourself first cuz ure more or less worse than your mates"
Fuuuh...im all relieved after saying that...
Finally i make him learn something besides overcome fear for his program today..

Dont talk about karma, cuz im effing used to it...
So if you do not want bad karmas to hit you like a hurricane,
then my pretty advice would be..THINK deeply, ANALYSE carefully..
Dont just speak like there is no tommorow for you and assure that whatever you say dont come back to you...:)

I am grateful to have..
Jacen Alvarez who is always there for me..(be it near or far,that doesnt even matters anymore)
And i know very well, you have alot of things at the back of your mind..
You have been thinking and thinking....
Dont worry sayang..i will take care of you plus both your parents in future k..
Lets doakan mereka..(both our parents)
Moga, Allah panjangkan umur mereka...
murahkan rezeki mereka,berikan mereka kekuatan untuk jalani usia emas mereka...
Jauhi kanlah mereka dari malapetaka yang akan menimpa..
Dan kita mohon agar dosa mereka di ampun kan..
Amin...

I love you sayangku muhammad noh muti...
Sesungguhnyer ya tuhan, ku hargai setiap pemberian yang kau berikan padaku..
Ku bersyukur...:)

Mummy and baba...
Please...wait for me...
Cuz i still need you both in my life...
i sayang you both...please....
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Date: Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Time: 12:59 AM
Time Missed!

Brrr...just got back from work now..
Damn it...Been torturing my body ever since last 3 months..
In fact i did see alot of difference in me now lately..
Been sleepy late, woke up at 1pm..
Left the house f0r work, reach home at 12 plus..
All shagged and exhausted for 7 hours of standing, 30 mins of sitting..
I do sound like a robot dont i?
tew!tew!tew!
I have no idea when is a good time for me to have a rest?
Hell ive no idea...hate time soo much...
Time simply so evil...
Serious, it is so much evil than before...:(
This cycle gonna repeat till end of my last week of school holidays...
Which means, to be exact...One more month of hell..:\
Shoootttt!

Miss my bacin right now...
He's having a good time in camp killing zombies...:(
while im at home now updating my blog, watching music videos..:P
So kind of like not much of a diff..lalalala!
Cant wait to meet him again this weekend..
I soooo wanna make it up to our last weekend outing..
Mane tak, me having PMS..he having sleeping problem..
So we kind of like having bad romance this week..
SOOOOO LIKE NOT US LEERRR!
Salahhh lah sey...:(
15th come quick! Dear,lets go and have chocolate moments!
Ive been craving for it for weeks...:(
Wonder what am i up for this weekend with him..
Feels like having steak...i wanna have sirloin steak this weekend..
but where ehk...???
I think i shall wait for my bossman for his words..:)

Im all feeling better...
Miss lulubooluu right now..
I need to catch up alot of things with her..
i just miss spending time at coffee house and chat all our minds off..
Cherish those happy moments...
I need to think of something to meet her up really soon..:))
Hmmm...ogie did tag me about meeting up..
So.....should we just have one night with the jackass at Timbre next weekend?
I think that shouldnt be a bad idea...:P
Shall tag Mr Jacen along...:)

I so need a rest right now..
Need to get up for work tommorow...
5-11pm shift..fuuuhhh.....
My happy face is glowing...
I think i can get that oakley shades really soon..
Adious!Bye!
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Date: Sunday, March 7, 2010
Time: 1:27 AM
TGIW story!

Finally, this week gonna end soon..
Im waiting for Forest pay and i will be able to breathe..
again...27th come quick..swensen pay...!!!
:)


Got so angry with Jacen today..
In fact he have been kena scold from me,
a couple of times this week..
Ey helllo...!!I angry because i PMS k..
Pity sayanng...
Today he wasted half of our day for his sleep...
I waited for half a day,
When he finaly woke up and say....
He got a bad backache..!:/
Nak marah, kesian..So all i did was..
"Its okielah baby..next time inform me earlier.."
Nvmd k baby...Lau u complain tk cukup jumper i..
Not my tai chi k love..:(
But we did meet up, went to town..
Had our dinner, jalan2 and did our exclusive moments together..
So yar..i was angry intially but when i met him..
I cair...kesian my bby...
He have always been there for me..
tired ker,ngantok ker, letih ker, setengah mati ker...
He still stand by me...:)
I cant ask for much, cuz i dont wanna trouble him..
ILOVEYOU!!


Hahaha!TGIMGF...
LOL!!Nyahhh...Its like so obvious..!!
Im better...kate dah tk sayang...
Asal nk self-update pasal ex kau(Jacen)
Jealous issit.........
You want him back??
Take lah....*only if he wants to*
You took half of his life away and now you wanna try hanging around him..
You gotta be dumb lah...dont eat your words...
Nanti berak2 kuar alphabets sey...
Uh.....!!!
You let him cry on his feet to ask you back..
You confidently say you dont love him for the past 2 years..
Wah!!now you wanna linger...no,no,no way...!
Quit playing games with his heart..
Your lost for kicking his ass off from your life..
And aku pick him up...I see him smile again..
I see him laugh again...i give him another chance to breathe..
So tell me if you dare taking him away FROM ME??
Well if you wanna do so...
You just throw ur life to me for free girl...
I will let you taste my fist for free...:))


I FIND HUMAN IS SO, TOTALLY RIDICULOUS..
Lau benci asal self-update?
Lau tk sayang asal cemburu?
Lau despise asal barang2 masih simpan dlm gerobok?
Lau tk suker, asal susah nk jatohkan barang?
Bukan tk mintak ehk...dah naik lemas bual cara baik...
So suggest arh aku nk buat aper skrg..?
Susah ker nk BERDEPAN?
Jgn risaulah,
NEVER I WILL FALL IN LOVE WITH YOU AGAIN...
even if JACEN dont exist in my life now...:)
Cuz the day wen i finally open up my eyes and i started to laugh and smile again...
Is when my friends from the forest, from the kopi stand up with me..
You disgust me my whole entire life..
So what if you despise me...???
BIG FUCK ARH? tak mati arh...:\
Same goes to you Farhan...
Hopefully mak janda tu bleh kasi kau happy sampai kau tua..
Tkyah susah2 carik aku den step kesian..BOH CHI lah lu!
Hidop tk menentu, nk kesiankan org...jaga diri tu baik2..
Sblom jaga hidop orang lain...!
I seriously.....!!!
Effing tired of my exes....
They dont worth a single cents of my hard work...
Even if im single, Jacen have not yet anywhere to be exist, looking at the past..
It really disgust me...i willing to be single lah sey...


TGTMBF!
He is the only one i need...


The best part of you bby,
You enjoy being yourself..
Plus, seeing you like this makes me happy..
I assure you, that i wont fake this relationship..
For im really sure tt is what you need...

Goodnight world!

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Date: Tuesday, March 2, 2010
Time: 1:04 AM
Precious

In life, we cannot expect everything to be so perfect
as much as we want it to be..
As far as im concern,every humans including me
live in imperfections...

This aint any random post i usually post out..
Its because, i lost a good friend of mine last Saturday..
And i sense a great lost in me...
Though...he is not close to me...
firstly, i remember he's the one that took the guts to approach me
back in ITE..He kept on smilling at me...
He randomly pop out in my MSN asking me about life..
But everything was over, when Nisa broke the news to me that he passed away on a motorbike accident...I broke down and in actual fact i dont believe such a nice man like him,
have to go home that early to meet HIM...
My prayers will always be with you bro..
Salleh Aries,
Moga tuhan cucuri rohmu,
dan tempatkan kamu dikalangan org2 yang soleh..
Al-Fatihah,amin...


I heard alot of random issues regarding..
Friendships, relationships this few months..
Been giving much supportive words assuring
these people dont do anything stupid just to ease their pain...
Sometimes, we cant solely depend so much on friends
for fun and living...they can be there but after sometime..
they still have their own things to do...
At times, we got to be strong to face challenge ourselves..
Have the faith in ourselves that we can stand on our two feet
and fight against any odds..
Giving up are just short phrases
that will make you feel better only
for a short while..:))
Im giving the best i have in me to make sure..
Everything goes smoothly...
I cant deny that, at one point..
I will face chaotic times...
And for im really sure..
im ready for it...:)
With you(Jacen Alvarez),
Im treasuring every single precious moments i had with you..
Moments when we laugh our way from one end to another end..
Moments watching you sleep...
Moments you hold me tight and never let me go..
Moments you see straight into my eyes and say "Baby, I Love you"
Moments listeming to all your jokes, your bad days, your problems..
Moments you kiss my hand when you wanna say sorry..
Moments you kiss my forehead and bid me goodnight..
Moments you rushing off to meet me from waking up late..
Moments waking you up when i know it takes a hundred man to wake you up..:(
Moments we chatted the whole night long...
Last but not least..
Moments when you say...
"You're in my heart, and no one can have me back..You're way,way,way much better than anyone else...We will get married, i assure you that..:))"
And apart from all from the above...
No one else can take those exclusive moments from me or even
Taking you away from me..
Not even that poker face...
Cuz to get you, they have to get through me...

Sayang...
Thank you for being there for me,
when times are hard or easy...
I appreciate it alot..
Thank you for accepting my imperfections..
And that really makes me appreciate and love you till i close my eyes..
You're one of a kind..
My precious gems that i wouldnt wanna exchange for anything better..:))
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