Forever, Im yours....

Date: Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Time: 10:03 PM

Begin

Why can't we just, just be like this
Cause it's you and nothing else until the end
Who else can ever make me feel the way I
I feel when I'm with you, no one will ever do....

Sometimes..its funny to realise to know how this all begin..

And yet, its wonderful to treasure...
If i could have another minute with you..
We'll go somewhere only we know....

Itu kamu....

A perfect oatmeal with honey...

Brightens up my morning...:)

Green tea frap add javachip

Soothes my night...

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Date: Monday, September 28, 2009
Time: 11:12 PM

Reveal:)

Ive come to realise its already 6 months today...:)

Annnnddd....

I believe from my slow move i will get the chance to see the truth...

Sounds thrilling right...?huahuahua!

Hmmm...

Its not hard to reveal things cuz i have my ways to reveal things...

Why do i took so long..?

Maybe you shud ask this heart...

People might ask...

Dimana Janjimu Yang Dulu...?

Nie part i tk nk jawab...i malas...

Im tired of knocking the door...but still no answer...

The only note i receive is..all in the drain...

If i see budak itu...tak lagi kerana sayang..cuma kadang kala aku terkenang...Nothing concern me anymore...
If you couldnt be bother..

then ure not my concern..

Firstly, not because of someone else..

Its just YOU that i tawar hati....

From the day u didnt bother to see my effort..

and now this heart is numb to hear ample of "down the drain"
If you think im lying..evidence are saved to prove...

Its not im letting go so easily in fact it took me almost half a year to stabilise myself...

Maybe seeing me right now like very happy kan..

In fact im drowned with tears almost everynight...

And thank god having a close friend actually helps alot...

Dun YOU dare think otherwise about me!!

One day..

Budak itu and me will have to face anything that come across in front of our eyes..

im prepared..its NOT because of someone else! its because im prepared months after the break up..so yar..ive made things clear here..

Maybe..its hard to see you go through this problems on your own...

But its all fated by HIM that we have to face challenges in life..

I believe, ure ready and mature enough to face life...

Be strong and put on your smile...

Cuz tt will solve your troubles away...

You cant hide from me cuz u have poured everything...

and you know...i will be here to support you...

Terima Kasih atas ke ikhlasan yang kau berikan...

Yang patah tumbuh...

Yang hilang berganti....

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Date: Saturday, September 26, 2009
Time: 10:21 PM

Kau yang punya....

My days have never been better..

The dull morning is now much more brighter..

And the sleepless night is now over with cheeky laughter..

Walking down the beautiful days without any fears...

Staying strong and shall let the time lead our future...

Im unsure if this true..

But if its..i thank You...

HE must be really love me,

To bring me to you...

Its is so beutiful to let it go,

i believe,lets go with the flow...

Jangan kau bimbang sayang,di mana ku berada,
dengan siapa ku bersama,jangan bimbangku tetap
kau yang punya:))

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Date: Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Time: 1:54 AM

Not yet..

I did try dont you see...?Not once, not twice even hari raya...but ingoring is the game..well...heartless...Is it me or is it you? Thought you are gone with the wind but then you got work out for the wrong reason just because of a post..*lost!*

Dearest Bestfriend:) said this just now,

"The weakest thing about you is that you always think about others and you really dont wanna hurt anyone's heart purposely or even with intention especially comes to love and friends..."

"The strongest thing about you is, you're strong in heart and dominant with decisions."

Well, i do agree as this bestfriend of mine who wont dare to lie to me else you will be in trouble dear...:)hahaha!

Simply said...patience is virtue and it will be rewarded with wonderful things..Its not hard to smile when ure hurt cuz we can never noe, there's someone is sincere enough to smile and laugh with us...never judge time...let it take the lead..:)

6 months past and im still taking things damn cool...Concern if im already looking for someone in common with me right now..Nah....not yet..!CRAPZ! Im prioritizing things which is much important right now..Considering what I NEED and what i WANT...Two different words but hard to understand it...:)) Even if there is someone else, shall take things slow or might not even trust!Dont see a need to rush..dun have to take advantage of time, duration of waiting/beingl single as a reason to fall easily again...

Opportunity come knocking ample of times, when time is up, it will stop knocking..

Its hard to believe..
That this could happen to me...
What's next?
:)

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Date: Monday, September 21, 2009
Time: 12:31 AM

One step!

Its hari raya today..and i had a great day with my family...How touching can my family be this afternoon during the seeking for forgiveness session, the background music sound so like we are in drama melayu...e.g background sound, Dari jauh kumohon ampun maaf by Allayarham Sudirman Haji Arshad..God you can imagine the atmosphere at the sofa area today like drama lah sia!..Especially mak datin..(my motherrr)!Did a few visitings...and yar..i got back home at 1030pm just now!damn!

Dari itu...Saya, Siti Khamisah Jamail..Memohon ampun dan maaf atas segala kesalahan dan kesilapan yang telah saya lakukan sengaja ataupun tidak terhadap, sahabat handai mane yang akrab dgn saya atau pon tidak, terhadap bekas2 kekasih mahu pun bakal2 kekasih baru saya..ehemm! Maaf kan lah daku diatas segala tutur bahasa ku, silap kataku kerana di bulan yang mulia ini marilah kita membersihkan diri kita dari silap dgn memohon maaf sesama insan, kerana tiada sesiapa pon yang sempurna di dunia yang fana ini...Halalkan makan dan minum saya dan juga lepas nie JOM RAMAI2 gy joli lagi, gaduh disambungkan, buang muka mcm semalam, tk nk bebual mcm biase,mengumpat bertimbun2 dan benda2 yang kiter put a pause sementara Syawal yg mulia ini..BTOL TK SEMUA??hahaha!(saper2 yang nk mintak maaf tu biar ikhlas...yer?)

Beautiful rays in the morning.

Sparkling stars in the night...

One step at a time,

there's no need to rush

to see another morning and
to feel another night...

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Date: Friday, September 18, 2009
Time: 5:43 PM

Fool Stop!

Oooolalalaa.....Alas im having my long break from work starting from today onwards till Tues..Im almost done with raya preparation in fact im 3/4 ready for raya...:) Ketupat and lepat already fixed and ready to be boil tonight...hmmm...i bet this year raya might have a lot of differences compared to past years...Im 22 years old this year...still remember those goo o times when my sister was around..the preparation during my younger days was fun..hahaha!but now...good comes to an end..and now i have my irritating niece now to take over my place..<3 align="left">

I bet you would have read my post..and im ready for your game...Ure such a FOOL to delete of that post and you dare enough to re post it some kind like an angel send by god...Goodddneess!tooolooongg lahh..kau ingat aku bodoh per?If you think you can hide things well, i can even dig things really well too....watch what you doing girl...And lastly, i shall say this here and get yourself ready, cuz im gonna put a STOP and make you understand what nonsense ure thinking and ranting in ur blog!

Good friends?nah...friends is good enough..dun cum push me and end up im the miserable..

Stress with all craps...and i putting lots of effort to be better each day...

If it is good for me...ill shall wait till i dont know when...:)

Im yours...so please dont complicate...
Our time is short..this our fate..im yours.....<3

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Date: Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Time: 8:35 PM

Slappucino!

My morning was great today...with my beloved wati as my opening partner..i tell you..sumer gerek.....:))As usual..we meet up at bouna vista mrt den we proceed to store...laugh and sharing things...I realise that me and wati will never stop talking each time we met. Eversince last time...from commonwealth to Payah lebar..a great friend to walk with...Lulu did cosing as usual..pity u syg...but nvmd...me and wati will bring that smile back real soon...:D Went back to wati's place today to have my pit stop and we had a good conversation this evening...No worries baby...im always here for you...and will always be like before...:))

To who ever yang terasa...

Hmmmm....i wonder how old are you...still behaving like a 16 years old kiddo who talk using mouth not brains...well..let me tell you this...what makes you think you're so mean??HAHAHA!Lu buat gua kekek lah minah...!Just dont make me do things that you will regret from what you have said about me...:) You are just a freaking minor to me...including your good gossip friend...get it? I think ive save your very good friend away from you from all your drama...dont tust me...ask her yourself..see what would she say...:D Hey buddy....look at urself....dont make me drag ur bloody face in front of the big mirror in the store...and you know i wont hesitate to do so? wanna try some nice slappucino?im ready to serve you:)) Btw SUKERRR hati org lah die nak kawan dgn saper pon...dgn binatang ker, dgn beruang terkutuk mcm kau ker atau monyet tk cukup mkn ker...That's all up to individuals..who the fuck are you to assume and judge huh???skola mane kau nie dulu??skola sampah sarap per? I didnt expect you to be this way arh girl...!Fuck! You used to be the girl that i tear with when i broke up! nevr once i think negatively about you..But now you are the one bitching about me!! WOW!!! Marvelous! And i thought ure a great one that i never even thought you would ever have this bitch attitude..

LET ME SAY THIS DIRECTLY TO YOU....ITS ALL UP TO YOUR GOOD FRIEND TO WHOM SHE WANTS TO BE FRIEND WITH...YOUR GOOD FRIEND OF YOURS HAVE A HER OWN THING TO DO AND SHE NEEDS SPACE OF HER OWN...!GETT ITTT BITCH!! LASTLY, I DONT FORCE PEOPLE TO BE FRIEND TO ME...AKU TAKDE MASA NAK RAMPAS MEMBERS!!KIMAK KAU FIKIR NIE ZAMAN PRIMARY SCHOOL PER!! STUPID PLUS CHILDISH!! LAU NAK BEHAVE NIE MCM AKU NASIHAT KAU TOLONG UBAH PERANGAI SBLOM BEBUAL DGN AKU!

Before i end this!let me remind you ....ive been in the line for 4 years...ive taste the shit much more than you do...stop judging will you..??u are fucking lucky i dont treat you like fucking dog at work, i dont fucking shame you at work from all the things you have done...you sure you wanna play this game?im ready babe....just to remind you this bugger! If you wanna kill me,make sure im dead, but if i can still stand up and run...you better be ready to face the shit you give me..get it?!! You bloody fucking hell not happy confront me arh, lau aku uat salah aku mintak maaf, and i will make sure i say things which are true not cover up stories and i will never run away from problems..!Tolong bilang kawan baik kau....mulut dier jgn smpi milk pitcher smpi pat mulut dier...dah sombeng dah tk laku, jgn salah kan aku ehkk....better watch ur bloody mouth before you even wanna speak! Btw my problem arh i want to stay in the line for how long....i wonder...i stay with this job for a consistent of 4 years but you? how many jobs you change??sadarlah manusia....perangai cibai tu tolong buang ehk!!bual jgn ikot sedap mulut! Lagi satu hidop lau nak bodek2...bley belah arh k? Remember this..you dont know who are you playing fire with bitch...you just got the wrong bitch to bitch with!Taking care arh ehk....:)) For

Anyone out there who wants to think bad about me go ahead..like or dun like this is me..im saying things which are right...its not only for myself..its for others too..its all up to individuals...:)

This is only the begining of my return..more to come...so better watch out!

Dont act2 nice in front of me ehk...dont think i smile2 i dont care arh...

You thought the battlefield is over in fact its not..it just started...

:))

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Date: Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Time: 9:05 PM

friend and foe

Seri was looking for me high and low just for Kabir's birthday tommorow...I do hope whatever i have told you to do, will work yow!not too worry...its not hard to talk to these guys cuz i know them way to well...they are mature enough to stop and think before execute...

Met LULU this afternnon at work and here we go again...:)) Thank you syg for being a great lovely friend...NO TTM...i punye KTM<3..LOL! And fridayyy we will have a mini iftar at store with Syawai the BG, watipu cinta dan lulu buah hati ku....soooo....what shall i bring for these budak2 gemok....*korek hidong* I have to work opening shift tommorow, followed by birthday surprise to kabir down town after work,that's love!<3

This smile will stay even if anything pulls me down..cuz with great people around me, i wont fear failure...Running away from things only proving to people you're a failure...I will still stand tall for every single thing im doing now..be it right or wrong...:)) Stop running..face reality..<3

Audrealita Siti = The single one, a happy one and always got problem one!:)
I have more than just a pair of eyes and ears..
You will never know what can my move and smile means...
Cuz im unpredictable..:))

Being too sweet only harms this heart..

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Date: Monday, September 14, 2009
Time: 12:34 AM

Double 2 Done!

Well,well,well...what can i say....we are done with the iftar with the Climb.Republic and also my bdae celebration...:) Love you guys...Had a great night afterall on 10 September..nice one...Fatin..the next thing will be Climb.republic hari raya outing...i got my transport ready for the crews to pimp the transport!lol!!

The eve of my bdae wasnt a good one in fact a ridiculous and hurtful one! Damn you!!!Why do you have to get me fucking wrong sia!!! arggghhhh!!!Im sssooo tired and confused!!Different in words, different in actions and different in results..*garok kepala*

Like OMG!!!My dry food cabinet now is full of cookies and crackers for raya..!Mother Yankee is all prepared for raya war over at my cribz..I bet this year my house will go haywire with my friends...kecohhhh!!!my mum will like,"mairah, byk nyer...??" I'll invited everyone for the openhouse and makanlah korg ketupat dan lauk pauk!

Double 2 now..thank god..im still breathing and i can still live my days...
Its gonna be tough,but i will still face all this crap,bullshit things..
I wonder...why people choose to behave this way when they can just be neutral...
They choose to be like this and at the end of the day they confuse themselves...
Im a simple person who doesnt need to be please or need to be please or want to be please
Cuz i know sometimes is not easy to please people..
If ure willing to be my friend i hope ure sincere...tts all i need:))

Im all happy by myself...with my two best girlfriends around...im sure im gonna be fine....
Cant wait for Fridaaaayyyyy....geylang....here we cum bitch!
I so wana bring Lulu out...she is no much in troubles now..(sygku...be strong...<3) style="font-style: italic;font-size:78%;" >

If only you dont misunderstood things...:(

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Date: Tuesday, September 8, 2009
Time: 3:29 AM

Iftar season

You and i both love...<3

Bitch Sisters!

Thank you beautiful girls...:)

Iftar season is already so at peak now...and Arab st is not anymore the favourite spot for the mat and minah, the cool and screws, the fashion and selekehs to lepak..It was barely empty today when i had my iftar with my islamiah gangs..(lol!) Sesungguh nyer niat aku esok tk berpuase kerana aku lah setannyer...:)) Had a great night today with all my dearest gfs...:) Thank you wati and deebz for the advance bdae gift..its beautiful honeys..<3> And today..my mata got gula2 arh...aiyoy!Its gonna be the same..hell yeah! Thanks for asking and my answer will be the same like the past years...Its gonna be simple and the digit increase..:(

Why those tears?

I didnt do anything to let those tears out..

Its getting hard to breathe here...

Take me out!!!!

2 more day...goodbye 21...

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Date: Friday, September 4, 2009
Time: 3:41 AM

bitter heart

A goodfriend once said this to me...
"Darling...you dont need a guy to validate your life...."

I do agree but not all...yeah...this stubborn bitch just wouldnt wanna listen..but...i guess its quite true...im all free now...smiling to every single thing im doing...yeah..my pick up abit slow after all the sickening things happen in life...im living my life with lots of memories and i kinda enjoy embracing every single memories...hahaha...sweet and i can never forget....:))For now let me spend sometime of my own...im sooo tired to even to start from scratch again...so i think time will tell...for all i know, i dont have a time for a man now...just need my space...i couldnt be bothered...hansem ker, budak ker, bapak org ker, abg2 ker,kaye ker, bdn maut ker....sumpah aku mls nk lyn...

Arh...yes!left with 2 months and my bill installment is over...im freeeeee....!and this is the best part...putting lotsa lotsa of shifts and earn that hard pettyy cash!And i will go....weeeeeee.....i swear..i wanted to do this for a very long time..from Farhan's case to Firdaus's case...god! Well..i think i will achieve this goal first...and ooh yahh! Savings...

Raya this year, will absolutely goonaa have much difference...without my sister around at home for cakes and cookies baking...left with me and my sister-in-law...:(( So i goootttaaa be extra strong....double hard stuff i got to juggllleee!! Bikin kuih raya at home and jadi hantu raya at work! Damn!

oh my bitter heart...you're the only knows how it feels right now... im smilling through cuz i dont wanna get hurt nimore...so lets live it up!

Im truly so sorry...
Ive disappoint you,
And if it is hurt i apologise,
Cuz i myself aint perfect either..
Time will tell...

6 more days...goodbye 21....

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