Forever, Im yours....

Date: Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Time: 1:59 PM

Errooor!

Im so freaking tired right now..

We had kayaking expedition yesteday down at NRSCC to Mana2 Resort..
We did it thru and fro...wah! So Erroor lah dey.....
Lucky i ever paddle before...so like wtf ar...
Thank you dragon boat, for at least i have the endurance the whole expedition...

Biaselah...org sporty...mcm i...susah datang....chey..:p
But now im suffering from backache..

Worse liyana heard my bone gave out "keterk" sound..
Scary shoot or wat??
I know you gonna be worried about it dear..
No worry, ur baby strong..:))

Alright...so how's my weekend??

Friday was awesome...
Saturday so the Avventure...
Sunday thrilling...:)

I had so much sinful food and dessert galore with my love..
We had Anderson Ice cream, Carls Jr Oreo Milkshake (So Sinful..but effing delicious)...

Lepak under the Singapore Flyers looking at the stars..

Singing our hearts out...:)) Sweet kan boyfriend gue...
Saturday we went to Sentosa for Megazipping...lol!
I seriously feel megazip is not worth paying and bore to the core...(sorry sayang, u paid for a bore adventure trip with me..)

We stroll around the island and having so much fun by the beach with his imaginations..:))
Barcadi Freezer in our hands, kissing by the beach and snuggling with each other..<3

Secret Recipe dinner by the bay...:))

Gemok or wat sey i baby...:\
Tell me if 3 course meal is not fattening plus banana chocolate cake for dessert..??

Look at this...

Im soooo full lah after dinner...Cant even walk properly..

But i had a great night with him...from the beginning till the end...

Met my love after work to catch a movie..

So yeah, we did catch toothfairy and its kinda of a good show..

7 out 10..

How? Im satisfied with the story line..

The fact is fairytale exist for kids..

Dont destroy kid's dream....:))

But the most thrilling part on Sunday was that.....

I met his both parents in one shot..

Lucky i put on something covered...

No flesh exposed...hahaha....

Wow! NERVOUS LAH sey...:

But it went well so far..ive yet to hear something good from both his parents...

Hahaha...sayang...
ur time will come...
You have to meet not only 2 but 6 person...

That's including ur future in laws...hahahaha!!

Damn..! Isnt it that cool...??

Hell yah! Our weekends never gone to waste....:P

Im so looking forward for this weekend...

Another avventure activity maybe??

Im so in love lah dey....

Muhammad Noh Muti...

Kau Tercipta Untukku...

Dearest Jacen,
Its been quite sometime, since the last time i am able to love again...
You took all those sadness and anger away from me...Giving me the ability to love again when you know i hate men after all those craps i go through...Everything went so fine when the first time i met you...the way we had our first conversation...You totally change my perception towards man..You bring me back to life and for im sure this is the love that im looking for, im craving for and wanna own it for sure...You gave me the wings to fly again..and the best part of you is...You can handle me at my worse, never you gave up...you are there guiding me slowly giving me the opportunity to learn the things that you have said...You dont hang me lose, you're there motivating me and encourage me..You totally deserve me at my very best..You have the things that i need in a man...You're mature enough to handle yourself, your emotions and your mind. You took every courage to make me love you so much..I appreciate every single moves you did for me...Be it, your love,your care, your share and yourself especially...

I do hope this love journey we had will last till infinity...
And im sure, this will work...I bet we did all the talk about us..
For that im pretty sure, we can handle things much more mature..
Thank god! You're the one...
The one who wants to talk things out...
The one who dont run away from problems..
The one who dont have secrets between us...
The one who make me smile,laugh and scream...
The one who know how to treat me right...
Most importantly...
The one who fixed his mind to settle down with me...
WOW!JACKPOT SITI!
And i confirm...gonna treat you well like how you treat me...
So,so,so lucky....
And i wanna say thank you once again my love..
You're not the one i want...
But the one i need for my whole entire life...
Lets rock this relationship and take it slowly to the next level..P/S: Thank god, im not anymore with any of those wrong choices of men in my life...Else i wont be able to meet you and love you and you treating me like a queen...Maybe now im still crying and fighting because of immature actions..:\ Thank you to all my wrong choice...you guys are not good enough for me...not even to my standard...i lowered myself just to love you guys but still all down to drain...So long suckers..climb slowly lah hah? yada,yada,yada with your own love fantasy..Worse, dont do the things i do to you guys to ur girls cuz it is so fake! :)

Dear2...you know...
I will always love you and you know you're way,way much better...
keep on rockin' and make me go grrrrr all the time k?

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Date: Monday, January 18, 2010
Time: 11:49 AM

mind and mine

Looking things is much more positive side..

Be it hard or easy...ill brave it thru..

My mind is fixed..

Whatever is in my mind, will be mine..

Braving thru every single perceney with you my love...<3

Wonderful Saturday i had with my dearest...
We can never run out of ideas for our outings
This week outing would be my idea...
hahahaha! Sentosa!
As usual...me and my beach...:))
I wanna bring him to megazip lah....
An adventure outing with him..
Zippppped slideeeee...!!!

Can i just have a little more time with you?
Can i just have that privillege to have you in my bed every night?
Can i ijust have that space of our own to live in?
All i need is you and that's all that i need...

Javen Love:
Letting you go home is already hard enuff what more if we are not together, everytime we're away from each other my life became a dark pit swallowing my very sanity..How much do i need you??very much like the air that i breathe....

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Date: Wednesday, January 13, 2010
Time: 9:49 PM

far away!

He's on the phone nw with me but yet i miss him so......
Listen to him sharing about his medic course,
and as usuals i will start my trumpet moments bout schools!
Sooo cute my deary..

Jacen Love: Baby....I miss you.......
Audrealita Siti: Awwwww....me toooo dear..*sad voice*
Jacen Love: *He did his cute meew2 voice at me* You know what b..
Audrealita Siti: What issit love....?
Jacen Love: When i was gyming yesterday, the gym played the sing whatca say...it reminds me of you lah b...ur ringtone..
Audrealita Siti: Really...awww.....you remember what ringtone i use?
Jacen Love: Yeah....even though i dont know that song...
Audrealita Siti: Awww.....you ingat....* heart crashes like hell!!!! setan also scared!*

I really cant explained why, but what matter most...
I do missed him alot when he is so far away from me...
Didnt turn up for work today..seriously im really sicked!
My hormones are changing and everything doesnt seems right...
My eating appetite went down...
My body got so tired and lerthagic really easily...
But thanks to my dearest friends at work, who really understands me..
Thank you appreciate it alot...

Really missed my starbucks kopi gangsters...
I dont know why...the memories back in SB struck my mind the whole day today...
From the larmazocco coffee machine to mastrena coffee machine...
All the sweet and bitter memories run down my memory lane...
Wish im still working at SB with the kopi gangsters again...
Walking up in the morning, doing opening...
Brewing COD and setting up the pastry case...
Listens to class 95 while topping up ice bin..:(
Hate lunch slam!
Non stop hits! especially the students!
I love closingssss!
but still, its redudant for me to talk about it now..:(

I dont know how long more will i stay at swensen...
Im still considering...maybe im looking for another job profession that can allow me making coffee...tt's all i care...

Saturday will have UT 2 for kayaking..
Hell!!! Capsizing!!
K now im gonna wait for my love to be back to his company and call me...
Gonna do my RJ now...
Hari2 also RJ...RanJiao!:\
i sooo miss him alot right now...
Love...
Why are you so far away...??
Can you like fast forward the course??
So we can spend more time??
Ish! Weekends not enough noe deary...:(
But nvmd..
i will patiently countdown the days to ur graduation..:))
I sayang you kental...(you call me pantat!)
I just cant wait for this Saturday cuz i noe its worth waiting...
See you soon my love...:)

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Date: Monday, January 11, 2010
Time: 1:56 PM

Star!

Another day in school..
I hate weekdays...
Schooling, Working and Missing my love..:(
Seriously sucks....!
I have to be strong!Allehz!!

Missing him right now..
He's in camp in lecture room listening to his officer giving medic lecture..
Pity you love...For at least i do discussion..
BUT still!!!!
School sucks!!!PBL!!
Im sick and tired of it...
For the benefit of my love knowledge..
What is PBL?
Its Problem Based Learning..
Done!Not gonna touch on that further to you love...

Saturday!!!
I dont know why...Saturday is my favourite day...
For now till the next 2 months...
Causeee.....Thats the only day i can meet my STAR!!
The last saturday we met,
We went down town shopping like moviestar and hell!!!
He terrified me on the things he spend on me..
Luckily im not those girls who take advantage of people's generousity...
But what matter most...
Thank you my STAR!
AND the most important thing is.....
I finally!!!
Got my Iphone..:)
And my love tooo......
Great! Weekends like i mention...
Got almost everything ive been holding back for so long...
I love Saturday!!!

1 day down...4 more days to go...
We planned our short weekends yesterday night...
And i bet we so gonna like it...
Comfy and homely...:))
And im still figuring out what to do on his birthday...
So the coming soon...
hmmmmm........
I need my power brain to do something for him...
Ive made my mind to assure that his birthday this year will be a better one compared to past years he celebrated it...:)

All i care is...
I wanna mit him right now, right away!
Look at what he text me yesterday night..
WOW!! Look how much he miss me...

Jacen Love:
My baby, I miss u so much..
Its killing me just yearning for your touch.
Your hugs and kisses haunts my every anatomy
and sends chills just thinking about them..
I yearn for the day to see u again baby..
I really miss you:(

Sayang.....
From the morning wake up calls..
Late night laughs...
The cheeky talks...
The sad sharing moments...
Motivational session...
You know that i treasure you alot...
Im sure ure the one for me..
The one that can treat me well...
Im not scared anymore..
Cuz i know...
Im safe with you..
Im happy with you..
I wanna grow old with you..
Like you say...
Wanna watch our kids grow together...
And im so gonna agree of living with you till infinity....<3
I LOVE YOU JACEN ALVAREZ....
:))

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Date: Monday, January 4, 2010
Time: 2:56 PM

Home!

Damn! back in school!

Guess what! Im late as usual..

Can never be on time..:(

Gotta really do something about it..

If this pro long..I might say goodbye to As and Helloooo Ds!

Siak! :\

I actually misread my time table..

Im supposed to go for water based lesson but i die,die thought its CCM lesson..

so yar...i went blank! And i was 30 mins late...nothing's new aite?

Nabu! i have cock eyes now!

Nevermind!!!!

Basically, i did pretty good for the last week of holiday...

Did some healthy lifestyle activities...

From rollerblading to bouldering...

Damn!!Hell i have alot of fun with my JSB!

Honestly, my baby did all the plannings and all slide down so smoothly...

WOW!! i like..........

Shannon, nick and gee tag along during our date...

So kinda feeling really good bout that..

The more the merrier...:P

My life is filled with beautiful colours right now...

Not just colours but you beautify it with your sincerity...

Thank you my love...

I can feel it's beating again...

I can feel it giving the space to him again..

And i used think that this heart is shut for good!

Thank god, i finally can feel this heart beat, beats like im really being love...

And i know..im on the right track...

With him around, i know im safe...With him around, i know im home...

The love he gave me is not only just love...

Its more than just how you spell the word L.O.V.E..

You can take anything else from him...

You can bait him with anything you think it will work on him...

But i noe his heart is my hands...forever....

And nothing can sepearate us...(tts what my syg say okie)

Cuz we know we are ok...

Nothing beats his smile, touch and kisses...

Nothing beats his sincerity...For all you wanna know...

His the best! And the rest are just my past that i hate to rigged up again...

Sorry...

The best turns out to be the worse...

And the good turns out to be ugly!

My dear...

You knew exactly, where is your home now...

down here...

...

.....

...

.....

in my heart....:)

Please linger...

BRING BACK MY BABY BACK TO ME NOW!!

NEE SOON CAMP!!! YOU'RE SO EVIL!!!

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