Please..let me emphasise this once again dun come judge me if ure not good enough to judge who i am..You talk alot but u learn nothing about me, so i guess you shud fuck off and get a life..Learn who you are first before you could speak up about others..

Was in class today, and it was very funny tt i was in class but i took a time off from all the ppt again and went with fatin and zeeqah..and zaini and aidi tag along to window shop on aidi's new look i guess...but aidi, remember this, dun be a nonok k:)

Dearest Fatin..

Ure lucky to have syahmi, in fact ure lucky to have a guy who thinks like an adult, speak like an adult and behave like an adult at a very young age. And you shud take a every opportunity for what you have in ur possesion right to be a better person.. doesnt mean he's quiet he's not been doing any thinking, i bet he does, alot about you guys....He's the type of guy deserves my salute from the way he handle things and solve things..Ure lucky that he dont make you go around finding solutions to your problem yourself and he is always there to guide you even though i know its hard and irritating so much to see things repeat over and over again..tts norm and if u guys really wanna commit this is just part and parcel of relationship..Just think wat ive said to you this afternoon k love? siti syg fatin and syahmi...work things out slowly...dun waste the effort you guys have been holding from the very first start...

Rush back to holland..and........

I NEVER wanna say it here cuz its gonna be abit aweful if i would to say anything....but closing was great with Nurul, and she noes my sytle at work very well...we both do agree on this...true friends will stay but friends come and go easily even without we noticing it...so im so gonna be extra strong cuz i know nurul will always be there for me wen time are good or bad in my life..i mention this to Nurul and i didnt expect 2 same issue fall on to me at the same time..but im putting up strong front for all this issues, be it hard or easy...

Dearest Nurul,

From Farhan to Firdaus complications ure there to be my listening ear and never failed to worry about me..Im sorry if i ever make you worried about me when suddenly my life is so chaotic from one issue to another issue..And ur never ending advices will always be in my mind..Ure not my second hand friend but ure the true friend tt never leaves me...I swear, it was a heartbreaking session wen i spoke to you today about life and stuff..but im holding on to the faith that im left with currently...i just need a day with you and shop...sperry top sider or fred perry?let we decide again...:) But honestly, im touched wen u say u did miss me love..i miss the night u fetch me at wisma after my work and i miss the perangai kranji waiting for shah at civic..lol!! because of this 2 fellow u keep seeing me in trouble and sad...im sorry nurul...i love you nurul...:(

I wonder if i could still get the chance to meet masturina again, semester is over and im down with lots of shift...im wondering is she doing fine?

Dearest Masturina,

Maybe i might not be there now currently, i felt the missing of a bestfriend in my life..im so busy with life yet i cant stand school modules. I wish i could spend another night with you dancing on the dancefloor, another saturday afternoon keeping me comfort with your warmth hugs and kisses..mas, im sure i miss you alot..if my absence make you feel im leaving you its all not true, in fact im very much busy with my work and i can hardly wake up for morning classes. Im not a different person, is just im pretty much busy with my work and debts tt i need to clear. I do hope i could sit down with you again and hug you like before and laugh our asses off..I will always remember the night we went to st james and you said tt u never felt better talking to me cuz we are just like sister and we do experience the same thing in life by the side of vivo bay...masturina, i love you..i love you alot..please do take care of urself dearest love..muackss:(

Im just not happy with certain things but as everybody knows, i will keep quiet about these issues and i hardly get intimidated by all this craps..because i know im not wrong/and i know what im doing..im not going to give up on things...persevere!!Lastly, why am i the still person people need when they said before, they dun need me? do you know its hurtful...?i just wanna say, dun make me say its too late for everything...cuz for as long i still have my patience with me, grab the chance to realise your stupid mistake...i tot the place i call home is my beautiful home, but it now it slowly turns out to be a haunted house now...