Where shall i start??

Didnt do much things last weekend besides spend good time catching things up with sb hv family on friday. Listen to all their sighing and complaining before Jason came over to our chalet at night. ..never ending problems...thank you for the never ending advices and giving me the best solution to solve things one at a time. Saturday, another day with the homies to Ubin for cycling...gawd! trying i shud say...but fun and also keeping ourselves fit and away from all the usual lepaks we usually do...hahaha..!at last something new...Sunday, was Lala and Mimie's wedding, went for their wedding and head back home...maybe im too tired from the cycling event at ubin...

Ive been very2 busy lately...busy with work juggling my time with friends in school, work, family, my physical training and all..im stress...im down suffering some awkward feeling in me...im trying hard to avoid all this awkward feelings..Fatin ask me why ive not been climbing, the answer and reason is very clear...firstly, because of him and the next thing is my working commitment...i wish things dun happen for the past 2 months..wish he dun go and layan and tell me wats going on,wish i dun scold him...wish the break up didnt happen..maybe i shall stay for climbing...i dun climb because of him..firstly, let me clear this up...ive always wanted to climb ever since im in ITE Mcpherson..I did overcome alot of things ever since i step my feet into Climb!Republic..but now everything seems awkward and change...Somehow, im not anymore in the team...dun noe why but i felt tt way...but i continue to smile..thanks to people who actually still wants me to climb..Thank you fatin and aidil...I will take to consider again...with my problems im carrying right now, i think i need to prioritize my needs..I need cash to clear my due bills in 3 months..so yar..maybe after this 3 months of hectic schedules i will climb again...

Maybe people might ask around...siti busy kerja?ader time pulak kuar dgn the homies..dgn budak climb tk nk kuar.. Let me say this, its very difficult to face someone you ever love with, use to have the same interest as you, same class as you and used to be very close to you...He's just like ur homie, lover and a friend...i walk off from the climbers just to make him comfortable..I love the climbers...but im so sorry that i cant be there wen we both have to sit with you guys...i noe where i stand in the team...I dun want this to happen...but im truly sorry climb!republic...

Im healing myself with my own way...i believe this hurt wont last long...it will heal in awhile..holding on to this broken till its truly cure...I will still remember you in my prays and i hope ure always find and smile all the time...