10 times you deny about it, 10 times i will say RUBBISH to you!Should i say you are lying to urself for all this while?i think i should...here i am climbing hard...really hard...but wat did i get back in results? all this nonsense cock things...dont have to go around the bushes and making people go round and round with your behaviour..See for yourself, who is making you round and round? isnt it you yourself? Wake up...seriously...yeah true enough im old...(im only 22 years old.!)but look into my eyes, do you think i dun understand you enough? haiz...till today, till this time...where are you?out there missing someone else maybe?haiz...:(

I noe many people out there think im so wateva..but i noe wat im doing...seriously...if other people can arh walk off and moved on with life so easily.. from my opinion the reason they moved on easily is because to them this part of enjoyment..but me..hell no....if im unsure what i want, that wat the hell i hold on to things at the very first...?haiyo!!!pening arg kepala otak aku yg dah nk mati nie!(ouh yar..someone call me otak mati..:)) its okie..you can never wanna hear my penjelasan..i accept it...:)

Now..the whole point here is..do i deserve to be like this after all ive heard over the past 2 months? Is he serious?or is he just treat this as a norm? have i wasted my time, strength,energy for our relationship? can he remember,every single thing ive sacrifice for him?DID HE?? haiz...Nobody noe arh..seriously...if i would to share...it wont come to an end...all i have to do now is to keep on smilling and keep my cool...tell me lah...should i forgive or shouldnt i? way too much....very very very much hurtful.... if i could scream at you now i would scream directly at your face..haiz...

Havent i love you enough?Havent i give you enough? why issit me that will not get the chance to love you again...?isnt it suppose to be me saying that to you?stop spinning your own head with your behaviour...take a chance, make a change...

I shall take a slow pace...once again..thanks to my dearest friends...i didnt realise that ive been picking up myself so much till today...i will carry on picking every pieces that's left for me...i will pick it up...then i will decide, should i just throw it away and treat it as rubbish or should i keep it in my heart...