Gawd...had a looooonnnnngggg day today...im very sleepy right now but i know i have to post something here today...What i went through today and tonight is really something shocking for me but i can only observe and keep things in my heart...

I realise what ive done to a person really create something out of the person life..be it a friend or even my family...Being there through their up and downs...giving them my warmest helping hand but yet im still not being appreciated...Im always being placed at the bottom of everything..But still i never wanna be on top of anything....

Kabir and Ajid...

(my two beloved swan brothers..)
I never wanna be like this...never i wanna lead my life this way...i changed due to certain things that path my way...im controlling it and no worries cuz i noe i have my limits...Ill come back...come back again the person whom you know all this while....Kabir..thank you for being a great brother to me...i know its hard for you being the center person from any problems that ure facing...been there and done that...Ill always be the lil sister that u know and forever be...

Offshore Sailors...

Please...take care of urself guys...2 months is really a very long period of time...All i ask is you guys go in one piece,come back in one piece...and please dun came back with penyakit babi please...come back with many2 money k?Korg alik dgn penyakit aku letak korg pat kandang babi nanti...

What had happened today is a learning tool for me to proceed with my life..im not myself..i m not sure who am i now...loving people but yet people doesnt know how to love me how it should be...Maybe..im just being way too kind and too nice...but i cant help on that...That is just me...and thats my weakness, i cant change that..."siti, kau strong arh ehk"Ive been hearing this phrase almost everytime i have problems....I have to be strong...cuz tts the only strength that i have to face every problem occurs in my life...But still...nothing could bring back the smile i used to have and carved on my face...i will accept everything...but i will never give up...